musings contd...............

alrightie...

so where did i miss it?

i mean right now, i feel like maybe i'm not meant to be in a fulfilling relationship

like my last "bus happiness" has gone and i missed it..

like all d good men i have come across are in my past...

like in d last year , i have only met fools, liars & cheats...

i mean i was this smart, beautiful young girl who had the world as her oyster, men falling at her feet, career on track and all of that...

where is that person?

rite now, i feel jaded, cynical, bruised.....

i cant even be bothered to hope anymore.....

i'll just put an end to this peice before i infect anyone with my pessimism...

xxxxxxxxxxx

WHY?

why am i always sad lately?

why is my happiness seemingly shortlived?

why do men come all around me only to walk all over me?

why dont they just let me be?

why is God letting these things happen to me?

why has xxxx stopped calling me?

why does yyyy think i can be his plaything?

(after some alcohol inspired kisses, i have suddenly beconme his wanton woman?)

why does zzzz think that because he chased me for years, its my turn to do the chasing now to prove i'm ready...?

(God knows i dont know the first thing about coming on to a guy!)

why dont they just let me be?

why do they make me beleive only to make me retreat?

why? why? why?

i'm actually at my wits end!

Jesus be a therapist!