yipeeeeeeee!!

yipeeee! yipee! ye.........



i was kinda melancholy a few days ago and was going to pour it all out via dis forum..but then i stopped myself..



what kinda "writer" only writes when she's sad?...



ok..so i'm not sad today and i'm going to write about good stuff dat's happened to me...

i've been quite happy lately.....and Lord imma say thankyou!

for my job....thank you

for me...because you love me just the way i am...thank you

for my family..mum,dad and siblings......thank you

for my friday night date..(i had fun..'wink')..thank you

for my lengthy phone conversations with xxxx...thank you....

for people who love me............thank you

for friends who totally get me.....thank you

for all those you have made me a blessing to.............thank you

for life and love(or the beginning of it?) side wink***......thank you

for my brother's new job.............thank you....

for my new car........................thank you...


you know what they say about giving thanks?....once you start you find out you've got a million and one things to be thankful for......
it really feels like i could go on and on....like my thank you list is really endless!


but i gotta go now...so Jesus.....for today.....again......thank you!

musings contd...............

alrightie...

so where did i miss it?

i mean right now, i feel like maybe i'm not meant to be in a fulfilling relationship

like my last "bus happiness" has gone and i missed it..

like all d good men i have come across are in my past...

like in d last year , i have only met fools, liars & cheats...

i mean i was this smart, beautiful young girl who had the world as her oyster, men falling at her feet, career on track and all of that...

where is that person?

rite now, i feel jaded, cynical, bruised.....

i cant even be bothered to hope anymore.....

i'll just put an end to this peice before i infect anyone with my pessimism...

xxxxxxxxxxx

WHY?

why am i always sad lately?

why is my happiness seemingly shortlived?

why do men come all around me only to walk all over me?

why dont they just let me be?

why is God letting these things happen to me?

why has xxxx stopped calling me?

why does yyyy think i can be his plaything?

(after some alcohol inspired kisses, i have suddenly beconme his wanton woman?)

why does zzzz think that because he chased me for years, its my turn to do the chasing now to prove i'm ready...?

(God knows i dont know the first thing about coming on to a guy!)

why dont they just let me be?

why do they make me beleive only to make me retreat?

why? why? why?

i'm actually at my wits end!

Jesus be a therapist!